Count your blessings
1) The woman was in her late 60’s when she died in her small apartment. She had left a trail of bodily fluids from the sofa in the living room to the bathroom where she was found dead sitting on the toilet. She was only found on the same day she died because a previous medical provider (nurse) just happened to be in the neighborhood and wanted to stop by for a first time visit and say hi. She never got the chance. The list of medical complications was long.
When Captain Know Fish ( who is also a Justice of the Peace in our county) and I arrived on scene he declared time of death. But there was no one to contact. She had relatives, we were told, but none of them ever visited or called her. The landlord had no emergency contacts available for the emergency personnel that had arrived to assist. She had no friends. No one ever visited her. The police officer on scene could locate no one to take possession of the body. She died alone and in pain.
2) Her husband called in her death. We arrived at a single room small ramshackle mobile home late in the evening. She had been sick for years and contracted Covid-19 recently. She had had several strokes but was not under any type of home care. It was just her and her husband and he was ill too. The mobile home looked like it could fall apart at any moment. He told the police officer he had no money to bury her and did not know what to do.
What is wrong with us? Why can’t we take care of each other? I have cancer and I am in a real rough spot. But I am overflowing with love and support from all directions. None of us should be left behind in our greatest time of need. It’s up us to take care of each other. Especially in these hard times.
Even with all the support I have in these hard times I cry about it. I know I shouldn’t but I do. I complain about the pain. I wonder if it is worth waking up in the morning sometimes to all this pain and agony. So far the answer, obviously, has been yes. I imagine it always will be. Just having the idea in my head though. That is something no one should feel. Everyone should have someone pulling them back from the hurt and, oh God so many people don’t. We should all strive to be that person for someone in need.
Fishing with Captain Know Fish
I have not gone fishing in months. I miss Captain Know Fish, Shane, Cody, and even that strange guy with the fly-fishing rod. Yeah, even him. I had just gotten back into fishing before all this cancer nonsense reared it’s ugly head. But my legs can’t handle the stress of standing on a boat yet. The truth is I can walk easily quite a long distance but I can’t step up on a curb without help. I don’t have the leg strength. I lost most of my muscle mass when I was in the hospital and am having trouble getting it back. Every doctor’s visit records a weight loss.
The guys take off without me now. Yeah, you read that right. They take off without me. I don’t blame them (of course I do, bastards). They should go out and have fun without me (no, they shouldn’t). It’s probably better for them now that I am not there and catching the biggest and most fish (this is true). It gives them all a chance to be “the guy”. You know what guy I am talking about. The guy doing it right. The guy making it look easy. The guy.
I do get it though. Just because I have to stay home and re-learn how to pee and poop again while losing my hair is no reason for them not to go fishing right? Right? Right? WRONG! You don’t do a guy like that. Ugh. Oh my God see what you did there? You made me write “ugh”. I promised myself years ago that if I wrote words for people to read I would never write the word “ugh”. Dammit.
Hold on, hold on.
I am joking of course. I take it all back. It is an honor and a privilege to fish with these guys. They are grade A fishermen and good eggs, all of them. They have all dedicated their lives to justice and family (2 peace officers and 1 judge) and are among the best at what they do. That includes fishing. I am proud to know them and thrilled they let me go fishing with them. And if for some crazy reason I am never able to do it again I will let you all now there is not a better bunch of guys to fish with. Case closed.
P.S. Yeah, even that strange guy with the fly-fishing rod.
I looked in the mirror the other day and realized that there is a striking resemblance between myself and Captain America. There wasn’t always one, but there is now. Recently, after an extended stay at a hospital, I lost a lot of weight in a very short time. It wasn’t healthy weight loss. But quite a bit of the weight was from my ass. Yes, my ass. Now granted, I did not have a lot of weight to lose from back there in the first place and no one ever referred to my ass as “America’s” ass like they did Captain America’s ass, but it got the job done and it was the only one I had. So just like Captain America carries his round shield everywhere he goes, I am now the proud owner of a similar cylindrical object known more commonly as a “butt donut” that I carry with me everywhere I go. True story. I just need to paint it red, white, and blue in the same design his has.
This fine object was quite the lifesaver when I got out of the hospital. If you have ever lost weight back there fast and then have been forced to stay immobile then you know what I am talking about. I envy those with padding back there. You never know how important some things are until they are gone. I will never make fun of people with big butts again. Okay maybe this one last time.
My butt donut shields me from pain and discomfort in quite the same way Captain America’s shield protects him from bullets and such. And I don’t have to throw mine around everywhere like he does. I just sit on it. Just place squarely on any flat surface and sit on it. Quite an ingenious little gadget if you ask me. I wouldn’t trade mine for his for anything in the world. Not even a star-spangled one made of vibranium.
So just like Captain America takes his shield every where he goes I will continue to take mine every where I go. Together I think we can both make this world safe for democracy. Well, him mostly. At least until I gain some weight back.
Hope all you guys stay safe out there. Take care of one another.